Blanking Out, Beauty & post #60

I have been publishing a blog post each month for years...this is the 60th post! I'm amazed at how many life lessons, relatable experiences, and food for thought moments can be obtained from dance. When I first got the idea to start a dance blog, I was excited to write about anything and everything dance. I even had a folder on my notes app with different topics I could expound on, in case I needed inspiration when it felt far fetched. They came in handy for a good while, until they began to feel misaligned in purpose. I started to notice a sense of fulfillment when I wrote more about experiences directly relating to my current journey. This wasn't the first time I felt a nudge towards writing more personally. It had always felt too much, too vulnerable, and perhaps even unnecessary...but slowly the idea grew on me. I figured it might be worth exploring if it meant more than I thought it did for me, for you, for us.

Will you believe me when I say that this is the 3rd time I've attempted to draft this post, and each time it has looked completely different than the other? The thing with this new direction I've taken is that the post needs to feel guided, inspired, and aligned before it goes out. It requires slowing down. So my current writing process looks like opening up a blank page, praying, and waiting for inspiration as I think about the dance related experiences I've encountered that month. Day 1 was a struggle, I could barely get any words down. Day 2 came with a few different ideas that ended up getting deleted because nothing stuck. Day 3 proved to be promising as the idea to write about this struggle of finding inspiration formulated. The third time truly is a charm.

Isn't it interesting that this experience itself was worth the outcome I was chasing? I have always placed so much value on outcomes that I loosely hold onto how I get there. Life has slowly been exposing me to a reality that proves there's beauty in the journey, too, not just the destination. There's nothing beautiful about blanking out for 2 days though. In fact I wondered if it was God giving me the green light to put my pen down for a while...or for good ( extremely dramatic of me). Glad to say that wasn't the case because you're reading this, but maybe I was approaching it all wrong. Maybe the beauty was elsewhere...like in the waiting for an entry that feels aligned...like in the commitment to uphold my standards...like in the desire to be intentional. I truly get mind blown each time I start with nothing and end up with a post I feel wonderfully about. And therein also lies a beauty of its own, yes? Here's to noticing the beauty in the journey. Here's to boldly writing more personally. Here's to our 60th post!

Keep creating & sharing!

~your dancer friend